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For so long being in drake..

I still remember the first semester

when theres only one person I know, Ben

I try my best to socialize,

oh well..... until Siva , Chin Hou and some seniors

Warn me that ....don;t get too close with Mr. W

(W = whatever)

I been wondering for T time..

and let T > 1 month

still, i don get the answer...

the second semester

I tried to talk to him...

He don like me. (thats what I think that time)

I accidentally saw some of the books he read

those books......err....

its something like ...

How to make friends, how to communicate,

How to socialize , How how how how how....

WOw...thats pathetic...and ...desperate ?

I read those books before,

but not in the way that to do something really big,

just try to let alien like me to understand human more.

anyhow, feel bad that i asked him to attend a seminar for me,

just to get my business passport stamped .

I was such a jerk, and promise not to do that

if I am not in a super-desperate situation.

Third sem. (now)

Carter described to me hows the life going during summer

when he temporarily stayed with Mr.W for a month

and listen to some other of my friends describe him

most important....The question he asked in class

I nearly bang my head on the wall...

HOLLY CRAP!!!

I think he got some psychological prob.

A selective one and weird.

mai gosh ....

don know how to describe ....

the feeling was like..

the feeling of

bang-your-head-on-the-wall-till-you-die-but-not-literarily-die

damn.

NOW, I KNOW.